So Surprise for those who didn’t know- I am now back in Chicago and preparing myself for my 2nd year of graduate school. Woo, Yay, (
cue fireworks and parade). I was home for a nice, long 3 months. I got to see almost everyone (and if I didn’t get to, I’ll see you at Christmas!). After a summer away from Chicago thrown back into a familiar environment I developed a newfound habit, I’m not so proud of, but I know I’m not solo in doing- complaining.
Now I don’t know if I’ve always been a frequent complainer, but I know I did it enough to wrack my mom’s patience with me (sorry mom). I’ve always been really-really good at communicating my feelings to people whether spoken or written and for some reason this summer I got tongue tied-so everything I breathed in frustration came out as a complaint. I know I did just the most with my complaining. I’m not proud of it at all, and it’s a habit that I’m determined to rid myself of since it’s one that particularly helps to mold my character in a way I’d like.
I could write you a thorough list of things I complained about and spin them into a positive-
but I won’t because that’s further placing those thoughts back into the atmosphere. My friend Courtney (S/O) posted a little something regarding her own blessings that really made me reflect on my own. Because let’s face it, many of us think of what we want and don’t have currently instead of channeling that energy into appreciating what we do have and being thankful for that.
I’m not against complaining because sometimes it’s just inevitable we’re going to do it. But when you find yourself apologizing (like I have more often that not-and if you don’t apologize you should) to those who are kind enough to entertain your rants- maybe it’s time to put a cork in it and just sit in time out.
So I am currently on a mission to rid myself of my habitual complaining chip that has been on my shoulder since I stepped off the plane from Texas till now. It takes 30 days to break a habit and form a new one-so whether on here or in my private space I will write out my blessings and focus my energy on that.
- I am thankful to be moved into a new apartment with my own room, and all amenities included in my rent.
- To have 3 full weeks until school starts to get my writing, reading, and apartment together before class starts
- Getting awarded a TA (teaching assistant) position that is not only paid, but will help me decide whether or not teaching in some aspects is something I want to pursue in my career field in the future
- Still having a work-study position in my department since our school is currently doing budget cuts and many, many people lost their jobs this summer including students
- Having great supportive girlfriends who I got to spend time with this summer and will get to celebrate my birthday with in New Orleans come September
- A really great boyfriend who supports me and has been very good to me through out our relationship,especially when I’ve been not so great at times
- My sister is healthy and keeping my nephew sturdy and strong until his arrival in November
- Parents who support me financially in my Chicago endeavors-and my mom who is coming to Chicago for the 1st time at the end of the month!!
- I am thankful that I was able to protect myself and able to not allow people who hurt me in the past to try again when they came knocking back on my door-because it took me a long time to understand that second chances are earned not given
- Great friends here in Chicago who want to see each other excel in their writing and push each other to do better, submit their work, and give feedback
So there’s a few of my blessings I’m happy for today- How about your blessings? What are your thankful for today? Even if you don’t call them blessings- I know that doesn’t always transcend to everyone. So call them whatever-positive vibes-reflections.